Sunday, 29 December 2013

flow??ape tuh??



ASSALAMUALAIKUM…

Hohoho,,pening,,runsing tuh yg aq rse sekarang nyh..headache!! headache!! Just imagine when everyone want me to be what they want..and I just felt soooo guilty when I ignore them…huhu,, what would it be when me,,myself be a lecturer,,someone-who-make-teeth,,accountant,,teacher,,business woman..hoho I would have much money than enough in my account bank..should I just go with the flow??be with the flow?? or be the flow??haih…I do not blame them..they just want the best for me,,yeah as me the last child and their adik and sooo manja x pandai nak uruskan sndri…first of all my ambition wanna be a superb doctor,,oo yeah big salary..have a big house and hard life time….uhuk2..love surgery things but I still afraid of blood,,fell dizzy when torn things into the organ and ofcourse  on my exam I have low marks in science and that changes me a lot..easy to give up..oh that not so the real me,,where am I right now..serious talk I don’t know where am I..just serah kat takdir..but fate without trying harder are not going nowhere..

I love maths and sciences..love it damn much but my marks in maths is better than sciences..that why I decided to take a carrier for my future that is more than math..and ble hasrat dah kluarkan for be a lecturer ade je yg menambah for be an accountant..and be an accountant aq x kesah coz it still in math and aq yakin aq boleh  buat..dan ble dah kluarkan 2 hasrat nyh ke pihak atasan mereka pulak ckp suruh jd cikgu and lagi mengejutkan ble suruh jd tukang buat gigi palsu,,katanye boleh buat keje kat umah even busy pon…and boleh buat bnyak duit..arghh can you get it my science are the lowest among my subjects… and I’m sure chemistry must meletop..and ble sentuh pasal cikgu pulak,,alahai,,mmg aq suke budak kecik tp itu x bermakna aq reti ajar mereka…at least kalau aq jd lecturer aq just bg penerangan and lantak mu laa nak paham ke x…yg penting aq dah bg penerangan…and ade pulak suruh business ahaaa nyh kompom waa x nak..kompom wa reject awal2..tolonglah mmg lah untung tapi skali rugi fuuhhh lesap terus semuanye…

So the conclusion I just follow the flow..and accept whatever is it..but still wondering can I succeed??can be just like my sis and bro..yeah all their dreams comes true but me..still trying to solve this puzzle which is already mess up..anyway who read my blog just pray for me on SPM…9A+..i’m begging u guys,,please pray for me…

*susah sangat kawin je lepas SPM jadi suri rumah..ngeee,,itu mmg pemalas laa tuh..

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